Waking the Walker

A mother's quest to survive her son's "zombie" years – aka his teens.

Tag: perseverence

Adjusting To My NEW Norm


Now that my Son is officially at college, my nest is very empty. With it just me at home, it’s really sinking in that I’m by myself.

This is a norm I have never experienced. I have been single most of my life, but I have always had a “roommate” whether it is family, partner or actual roommate.

This is a norm that will take more time to adjust to than I ever imagined. 

95529519 - the girl is holding a nest of branches in her hands,

For 18 years and 8 months, my daily routine revolved around my work schedule and my Son’s schedules; whether it be daycare, school, extra-curricular or work over the Summer.

Only having to deal with my schedule feels very strange.

This time of year was always our craziest too because of marching band/football season. Not having that is like putting salt into a gaping wound.

I have helped out at the football games as a means to get out of the house, but it’s just not the same without my Son in the band.

Again, it’s the gaping wound.

Read the rest of this entry »

Advertisements

Never Give In and Never Give Up


As my Son once again became Mr. Pessimist about the future of his English grade this marking period due to a bad quiz grade, I once again wondered how the Son of an optimistic Mother could become so negative. How quickly he turns to “the world is coming to an end” and there’s nothing I can do to stop it. He is willing to pack it in at the first sign of trouble.

11008299 - the four horsemen of the apocalypse in the sky.

Not sure what kind of help he’d be in a real apocalypse.

If this was the only area I saw the defeatist attitude, I could equate it to the fact that in general, schoolwork has come fairly easy to him over the years. So when he gets a not so great grade, whether it be because he didn’t study enough, misunderstood direction or just plain hit a wall, he gets angry with himself because he prides himself on getting good grades.

Academic success is a priority to him, so one would think that this would be the best motivator ever, instead of taking on a defeatist attitude.

The truth is, he reacts this way to just about everything. Something wonky is going on with his computer, his reaction, it’s broken, it can’t be fixed; I need a new computer. When I feel he may be gaming too much and it’s interfering with not just schoolwork, but home chores, he instantly goes to, “Fine, just get rid of everything. I’ll just sit and stare at the walls.” Or, if something is lost, obviously in the house, he freaks and says it’s gone for good.

22066918 - sad man, head on knees, vector illustration

There is no mid-way, he goes from life is fine, to it’s an apocalypse in a matter of seconds. I have to first calm him down; then, back him off of the cliff, in order for him to see the situation is not as grave as he sees it. Once I get him here, he usually resolves the issue, sometimes rather quickly, and the apocalypse is averted. Read the rest of this entry »

Time is a Walker


Why is it, the older I get, time just seems to fly by at the blink of an eye? And this time of year it feels like it’s moving at warp speed and all the things that need to get done are speeding by like a big blur.

16065826 - time space

My “To Do” list changes hourly, not daily, as I cross tasks off and revise. Tackling tasks based on due dates, like if it needs to get shipped, when is the latest date I can ship and still have the package arrive in time for Christmas.

Since my Son hit high school and is part of the marching band, my free time is even more limited during the football season. If the team makes the playoffs, which it has every year, the time I have to accomplish holiday tasks is seriously compromised. Add to it my hospital stay the beginning of November (see my post Dealing with Sudden and Unexpected Change https://wakingthewalker.wordpress.com/2016/11/27/dealing-with-sudden-and-unexpected-change/) which ate up the last of my vacation days and I’m more than strapped. Forced to only having weekends to get the big tasks done was been daunting.

Early in the month, as I contemplated all I needed to accomplish before Christmas Day arrived, I realized it felt like a horde of Walkers, adorned in ratty, blood and guts covered, extremely ugly holiday sweaters, was chasing me down. I didn’t have a tank to climb in, Daryl to swoosh in on his bike to rescue me, a walker guts poncho to mask my smell or a dumpster to crawl under. It was just me, armed with my list and the Walkers were getting closer no matter how fast I moved.

episode-13-walkers-fence-1

Even the best time juggling, multi-taskers can fumble and look like Andrea handling a gun for the first time. The safety is on and the Walkers have broken through the front doors. It’s time to panic, OR get resourceful and creative, just as the gang on “The Walking Dead” does when they are pinned into a corner.

episode-2-walkers-doors-760

Read the rest of this entry »

PERSEVERANCE


When the student becomes the teacher, it is time to pause and take note as to how far one has come. On a recent Sunday night, this is precisely what happened in my household.

Chris Hardwick - Talking Dead _ Season 5 - Photo Credit: Jordin Althaus/AMC

Chris Hardwick – Talking Dead _ Season 5 – Photo Credit: Jordin Althaus/AMC

On the evening in question, the “Talking Dead” revealed the winner of their Ultimate Walking Dead Fan Competition. The coveted price for this contest was a seat on the couch next to the TWD guests of the week. For those of you who aren’t familiar with the Talking Dead, this is a TWD after-show, where host Chris Hardwick and guests discuss that week’s episode of “The Walking Dead.” The guests generally include 2 actors and/or producers from the show and a non-show related celebrity that is a TWD follower.

I’m sure by now you can guess that I entered this contest, why else would the announcement of the winner have any impact on me. The main requirement for the contest was that you had to have a passion for The Walking Dead, know the show inside and out, and have an energetic personality.

To enter the contest you had to submit a 30 second video stating why you are the ultimate fan. Using this blog as my grounds to be the ultimate TWD fan, I created a video, ending with a poster size image of the t-shirt that was created to promote the blog.

WTW_TShirt_Final

I sent the video off with hope in my heart that maybe just maybe this could be the break I needed to help get more traffic to my blog, which in turn would help when pitching the blog to agents and publishers. The next day, much to my surprise, I received a request to complete release forms allowing the producers the right to air the video on national TV and post on their website, where viewers could vote for their favorite.

The e-mail stated “Based on your video, we might be interested in potentially featuring you on our show.” Plus “If you’re interested, please send us your phone number, address, and any of your social media handles (i.e. Twitter, Instagram, Facebook…)” Why they needed social media handles I wasn’t sure, but I felt that it was a positive sign, and regardless as to what happened with the competition, meant the producers may actually check out my blog and writer’ Facebook page.

Rainbow in clouds

Read the rest of this entry »

%d bloggers like this: